Saturday is our last competition: STATE. I'm exited for it, but sad as well. It'll be the last time I get to don my Swiss Miss cupcake dress and /attempt/ to be cute. I know I'm going to miss it, but I'm going to leave this season with a bang! Woohoo, go Oak Ridge! (Haha, I'm just playin'. xD)
The thing is, I invited this guy that I like, and he said he'll come. Which makes me exited, but worried that maybe he'll try to get out of it. That's something totally opposite to his nature, but you never know. I've tried to get ahold of him to give him our performance time, but he's always so busy. I feel bad. Maybe I'm pestering him? I don't know. I sure as hell HOPE I'm not.
But then, that's my problem. Lately I'm always anxious, worried, or something. I don't know what my deal is. And then I think, 'oh yeah,' and think about that guy some more.
*Deep breath*
. . . .
*sigh*
Okay, I'll be better for like, the next 30 seconds. I need to stop freaking out. Perhaps it is PMS. One can never know. . .
I'm seriously starting to wonder when I'll have time to draw again. After State, I suppose. This is a list of things I want to do when I have free time:

Meditate
Read
Draw
Cosplay

I need to start making a new costume. I don't know who I want to cosplay yet, though, so I guess that's the first order of business. I'd like to play a girl, but if I just can't find one I like I'll cosplay a boy. I'm not against it, I just think in general I'd like to stick with my own gender, 'cause it looks better. I mean come on. You know what I mean. When someone has a great costume, and then you're like, "OMG hes lyke so gorjuss!" and they turn around and you realize:
"Oh. That's not a man."

That has yet to happen to me. But I have seen many instances where that has happened to my friends.

VENT VENT VENT VENT VENT.
Okays. Baibai.[/rant]